you loved me in the corn field
that day
three years ago
and more

but no longer
we don't even speak anymore

i found out that you had her
didn't allow me any mourning
just jumped right in

and it hurt

i got bitter
not jealous,
by then, it wasn't you i wanted

it was what we had

i had a few lovers
between then and now
honestly, there is no way to compare

it was good while it lasted
while we pretended it was more

but in the end
the credits had to roll

i have a new love now
this one's a guy
he's more than you were
but i don't know if he's more than you are

and i guess i never will know
if you don't talk to me

i heard
you took out your individuality

at least now
i know you're not saddened by being left out

why else would you change yourself
but to fit in?

you always used to say
that you were happier
when no one saw you

but we all saw you
and you basked in it
i only hope that now
you let people in

how'm i?

yeah right
like you'd ask
like you'd care

but you would

maybe.

somewhere deep down
you'd still care a tiny portion for me

i can't help but be a tiny bit in love with you

you were my first

but at this point
i'm beginning to think i found my last

the one that will finally outshine you

maybe he won't be my last forever
but a girl can hope can't she?

you already know i do

somewhere back there
maybe you found out
that you do too