Well, not of my art work. But many of you have probably noticed a slump in my submissions. Such is life, most of my creativity goes towards personal projects right now. In fact I'll be uploading some pumpkin and blanket shots shortly. The title comes from the end of a friendship. Emo kid that I am, I have one thing to say on that, hopefully someday, she'll die in a fire. Violently. After someone else has done to her what she's doing to me.

That's about as far as I expect her to get if she even bothers to read this, so onto the news that she would find painful!

I don't have a full time job yet, but the position I had while interning mutated into a "permanent temp" spot. Basically, they're always going to have work they need me to do, and they can't afford to hire someone full time to do it. I'm only getting screwed because I have to drive an hour each way to work, that's counting traffic though if I stay late or go early the driving is less than 45 minutes and not bad at all. The pay will go up if the company meets its financial goal this year which we are almost at, and since it's now November, that almost will hopefully slowly become reached. I wants more monies!!!

On that note, I will be posting a picture of the blanket I made my boyfriend for his birthday shortly and I would like honest opinions, do you think I could sell those or similarly crafted items on Etsy? I can get fleece wholesale for $3 a yard and that would put each full-mattress sized blanket at a manufacturing cost of $18. So I could sell them for $25 and make a bit of a profit, I am doing the research right now. If no one would buy them, which I request your opinion on, then I won't do it! I'm making three more for christmas, one for each of my brothers and one for my friend Butters. With those four I hope to start generating interest on Facebook and here. So please, be honest. I love making these cause I feel accomplished after I finish each one, but being able to make them and make a bit of money on the side would be nice. Obviously if people wanted a custom job I'd charge more. Logistics really, more to come on that if it can happen.

As that brings me to my next topic, yes. I have a boyfriend again. This one's name is Matt and he's a total and complete comic book nerd. We get along well. Downside? He lives far away so I drive up there on weekends to spend time with him, which you'd think severely hampers my time to hang out with friends. Not so! I don't stay with him the whole weekend lol. But friends that I had in the area are drifting away anyway, differences in opinion, stages in life, all kinds of reasons why.

I have also taken seriously to Aerial Yoga. It's a lot of fun, if you've ever seen the silk performers from Cirque de Soleil, you know what I'm talking about. I'm learning to do that! Slowly but surely, and it's a wonderful full body work out.

That's about all I have for now, I'm going to post those pictures.

~Renegade

"I gotta feeling, that tonight's gonna be a good night, that tonight's gonna be a good night, that tonight's gonna be a good good niiiight"

~Black Eyed Peas

Okay, so it's not so much a night that was good, it was the past two weeks.

Let me begin with the beginning, as all logical things start there. At the beginning of the summer I started an internship, well they kept me on as temporary help until December 31st so my job search has slowed down. It has not stopped though, and the weekend before last I took a roadtrip with my friend Matt to Minneapolis where I attended a Publishing Conference. I learned a lot and made several very useful connections. I already have my first novel to edit as a freelance editor. I've been a bit slow on it, taking my time and whatnot making sure that I get it just right.

I am also working from home for a publicist as a virtual assistant. It's a way for small potatoes authors to become big potatoes by us marketing the hell out of them. I start Wednesday of this week.

So for those at home, yes, that is three jobs. Two of which are directly related to, indeed ARE, what I want to do for the rest of my life. I want to be a fiction editor, and I am well on my way to doing just that.

Ideally, I'd like to become part of a big-name publisher just cause that way I'd have job security and health care. I can't troll the underworld whoring myself out for health care, that would be too close to what Obama's supporters are doing with the conservatives. Don't get me wrong, I want nationalized health care cause it would make my life a hell of a lot easier, but I have to take into consideration that it might not happen and plan accordingly.

In other news!
1 I am still in my parent's basement. Yeah, it's not as glamorous as it even sounds like it might be.
2 Apparently a boy likes me, which was news to me. Good news, but still quite a surprise. That pretty much was this last weekend's event.
3 I walk/run my shepherd a little over a mile every other morning and he still begs me to throw the tennis ball for him when we get back. God to have that much enthusiasm about anything would be fantastic.
4 I saw Ponyo on Saturday night, it was adorable. And not what I expected at all, it was a kid's movie not an adventurous anime. It had all the elements of a good action adventure but it went cutesy instead. It was still good, I'm going to make my children watch it.
5 I have a fat lip.

I didn't really think anyone cared about that last one but I like lists to be in multiples of five.

"you've got the gift that keeps on giving, so baby, why you wanna keep it here?"

~Chuck Prophet "Just to see you smile"

I've been trolling Pandora again. This whole loss of all of my music thanks to the hard-drive's malfunction last september has made me rather cranky. Thankfully, I still have all the iTunes I paid for, I just lost everything I got from friends etc. And that was about 99% of my iTunes. *Sigh* At least all my really important documents were in flash drives or internet locations right?

In other news!

22 came and went. I don't feel any older or more mature, my most recent purchase was a two pound bag of jelly beans. Hehe.

I graduate in less than a week. What now? College is done. At least undergrad is. I feel like a big fake about Graduate School though. I really want to go, to keep learning. But I don't want to be a professor. Not really. And there isn't much else to do with a Doctorate of any Liberal Art. While I'm working at my internship I'm going to be canvassing the business world for a job outside of Michigan that looks interesting. With this economy, we'll see what I can turn up.

In the meantime, I have a job here that I will be late for if I don't get ready.
~Renegade

I woke up today after having the weirdest dream that ran like a romantic comedy. In retrospect, that's how my relationships have always gone. With a huge rise in plot to some sort of climax and a very long falling action, finally with the bottom dropping out once the drama is over cause it's all we ever had. I don't want the drama anymore cause it means it ends! Unfortunately, that might be a part of my personality...

Sigh. In other news, I've been being a typical girl again. One of my room mates is getting married so all of us are doing that hypothetical "when I get married" thing. I'm walking down the aisle to Peter Gabriel's The Book of Love" and really want some sort of literature and unconventional wedding, with a white top hat. Preferably Mark Twain on a river boat, but we can't have everything we want. And first things first, I need a groom! hehe

In my life, right now, I am not interested in anyone that I know. In a relationship or otherwise, I'm just not into anyone. I think it's a healthy place to be what with my plans of moving away from Michigan by October and my summer of living with my parents. I have some standards, and right now nobody meets them. I've got plenty of time, and in the end, I've always got Danielle!

Yup. Now go to Pandora and turn on Romantic Piano. It's quite soothing.

I signed up for 4 classes in this, my very last semester as an undergrad. I joined an honor society and I was asked back to my internship in a position as a supervisor of the lower level interns. And right now, I have 4 term papers. So I'm getting a lot of writing done, but none of it is creative fiction. It's all non-fiction or analysis of fiction or a journal entry about my feelings on a particular subject.

Currently, I'm writing a paper on The Story of an African Farm by Olive Schreiner from 1883. It's really interesting how different the word colonial is in the contexts it can be used in. As an American, I think of colonial as anything having to do with pre war for independence (it wasn't a revolution, we just changed leadership) America. But it means something totally different to the colonizers of South Africa or of Australia or anywhere else where there were colonies. It's been a real eye opening experience, reading this book. And in writing the paper I realize how much bullshit I am capable of cramming into a teeny tiny space. My ego's pretty huge about it right now, and I look forward to a blissful summer of only reading for fun and job hunting for something beyond the internship.

I'm still planning on going to Grad School, but I don't know where and I don't know what to study. Hopefully I'll have a major break through and write not the Great American Novel, but the Adequate American Mealticket!

More on life later,
Renegade